There is more yet!

Played against
The whims and fancies
Held on
To the ground beneath.
Of rational choices
Difficult as ever, it seemed to be!
Uncertainty lurks yet
And, hostility the world gives to me.
The torrent that lies within
Resilient to subside
Thrusting to unseen fronts
The soul surging to begin.

Reflections

True deceptions
Falltered perceptions
Farce, our guise
Life, less wise!
Overlooked, felonies
Life, a blur
Nothing i hold, to stir.
Pardon, my faith
No more
I can bear, the charade
To the truth
Of yonder
I wish to wilt.
Too dosed by life
I walk along
I know I am lost!
I know I am lost!

Soliloquy!

It never occured to me until my roommate here left to her vacation, that I had never lived alone! Incidentally, it so happened to be one of those times when i was feeling very low. The fact that I could not reach out to my parents whenever i felt like took the toll over my emotions. Of course, I was mentally prepared that a roomie( a long time friend at that) would be no substitute. The least I expected here was a person to talk to atleast. I was not prepared to be all alone, and here I was facing a situation where I did not have a choice. Oh yes! Now I know why they say "Life teaches it's lessons the hard way!"

I was quick to snap back at friends when they called me a spoilt brat. I did not want to be called so! And i loved being spoilt, and now i miss all of that, although all the while i denied it! Time brought me to a juncture at which I had to cook myself, fend for myself, pay my bills, cook and take care of myself! Its so hard to beleive that I was not even bothered about taking care of myself back at home. Mom was always there!

Few hours into my soliloquy, i started getting used to it. Not that I had a better choice to choose from to say! I am glad my friend was not here, for I realized that loneliness is really a state of mind. I am sure i did not feel lonely when I immersed myself in my favourite book or when I put in all my efforts to complete my assignments!